You deserve better

You know that feeling you get in your gut telling you that you deserve better?
Making yourself believe that is sometimes the toughest possible thing in the world.

Honestly, how tough should it be to tell yourself that you deserve better than what crap you are presently being offered!
What causes this state of complacency and acceptance within us?
One possible reason could be that we're never really mentally and emotionally independant enough to break free from our need of dependance on the views and opnions of other people. Eternally insecure as creatures, we constant seek affirmations and approvals from our peers and sometimes even from strangers.

Where does this take you?
You usually end up in working a 12 hour shift that you hate,
You're in a relationship with someone who not only takes you for granted, but also takes advantage of you monetarily and emotionally, sometimes even physically.
You've given up on your hopes and dreams because you don't value yourself enough to ever give yourself or your dreams a fighting chance.
Honestly, if told that you had a week to live, would you still be working in your present job? would you still be in a relationship with that person? would you not jump into your dreams head first with no protective gear what so ever?
What changes then? why give up on life when it becomes long term?

Is all that really related to such an seemingly insignificant aspect known as insecurity?
I'll never know, I still subscribe to the former lifestyle.
I still work in a job that has no long term implications, climbing up the corporate ladder is/was never a big part of my life plan.
Im still attached to emotional leeches.
I've put all my dreams on hold momentarily, hoping to start them with a new vigor anytime soon. And its been a couple of years of that.

Complacency is a horrible disease.
It makes a sprinter lame.
It makes a musician tone deaf.
It makes a romantic person stone cold.
It keeps a dreamer forever suspended in a state of static.
Forever in a dream sequence, to be broken out only by death.

I hope death, and by that i mean the death of this complacency arrives soon.
For it is only after I die once, that i will truly live.
the thought of loosing everything, might just inspire me to live for only the important things.